nothing would break my heart more than this.

lately for some reason i have been thinking a lot, too much about mortality with regard to the people around me. and the phrase "nothing would break my heart more than -" has been making its rounds in my mind. so if i look at you with a frown that is a mix of distraction with a dash of disturbance, yup i might just be mentally counting down. it's really morbid i know, but maybe it's a season i am meant to go through before i come to terms with some things.

"nothing would break my heart more than . . . "
"nothing would make me happier than . . . "
"nothing means more to me than . . . "

these are really all about the same things, or the loss of them. some friends say that i seem rather hardy and adaptable but i find that it's probably also rather noticeable in my past and ongoing works that i don't deal with changes and loss very well. that might be why i choose to face these struggles and understand them and myself better through photography instead. sometimes this shows up even in my design work too.

whenever i find a line stuck in my mind as i do this moment, it usually ends up becoming the title of my next series but i'm afraid this time i don't think i will do it. words will hold my fears for now.

my faith leads me to believe in eternity. yet this same faith also includes the inevitable realisation that not everyone will partake in the good part of this eternity.

i just hope you know that nothing matters more to me than seeing you all in eternity.

我只希望你知道， 对我而言，没有任何东西比能够在永生时看到你们更重要。

hopes are selfish in a way.

The Photographers' Stories Redux // 1st to 29th March 2009 at the National Library

Exhibition
1st – 29th March 2009
Level 7 & 8 Promenades at the National Library Building

Official Opening!
Saturday 7th March 2009, 4pm
Level 7 Promenade at the National Library Building

Curator’s Walk
21st March 2009, 4 – 5 pm
Level 7 Promenade at the National Library Building

Since January 2009, 24 photographers have been exhibiting in various public libraries around the island. “The Photographers’ Stories” now culminates in this special group show spanning over the Level 7 & 8 Promenades of the National Library Building. Chris Yap, the curator, recreates new stories from the images, bringing with them new contexts to be perceived and admired. This show is also part of “circa”, a photography outreach programme that takes place biennially, for students aged 13 to 19 years old.




the little solo show that i had at pasir ris library is going to town!

it will be meeting up with the other 23 little solo shows and all 24 of our heartfelt solo stories will be brought together into one curated story in parts that unfold over the 7th and 8th levels of the national library building in town. be sure to check out both levels to catch the whole story!

yup, i know you can't read anything from those two panels so do come to the show to read - read the written stories and read the stories photographed.

enjoy! : ]

hope to see you on Saturday at the Opening then. 4pm on the 7th level hor!