undue importance (work-in-progress//a series begins)

what happens when we accord something ordinary with undue importance?

light sparkling on the water surface,

a stray plastic bag aglow with the setting sun,

and perfectly embedded leds signalling the arrival of the train.

these are things we never quite pay attention to in our daily walks but yet are the very bits and pieces that form our everyday memories.

i begin to see in this series the unobvious things i am increasingly drawn to when i walk about with my camera.

droplets 10:11pm, 3:11pm + the day after

10:11pm, 3:11pm 26th jan 2011.


retraced the day after - 9:13am, 2:13am 27th jan 2011.

(think i overestimated myself when i said that i was getting used to you being away.)

may time fly faster! for now...

meanwhile, drawing is definitely therapeutic. :]

drawings//colouring by 姑姐 and yw

fish and duck by 姑姐.


duck and fish by yw.


duck and chicken by 姑姐.


goose draft by 姑姐.


goose by 姑姐.


happy crab by yw.


tree when troubled. 5+ am 3rd june 2009.


virus friends when suspected to have been exposed to H1N1. 25th june 2009.




fishes for 姑姐 to colour. drawn in the dark while staying over in SGH. 16th oct 2010. colouring completed by 姑姐 at home on 6th nov 2010.



my auntie drew for me and taught me to draw when i was a kiddo. i remember it was mostly fishes in various forms and often in great detail, based on pictures she saw in magazines or the fish we happened to be eating for dinner that day. i can't find any of those earlier drawings but a few years back i thought to start my aunt drawing again and it became a bit of a back and forth dialogue between us.

she was hospitalised recently. i didn't really know how to make her feel better and was feeling quite down myself but just instinctively brought this sketchbook we've been using along to the hospital when i stayed over with her and drew in the dark when it was impossible to sleep.

nothing would break my heart more than this.

lately for some reason i have been thinking a lot, too much about mortality with regard to the people around me. and the phrase "nothing would break my heart more than -" has been making its rounds in my mind. so if i look at you with a frown that is a mix of distraction with a dash of disturbance, yup i might just be mentally counting down. it's really morbid i know, but maybe it's a season i am meant to go through before i come to terms with some things.

"nothing would break my heart more than . . . "
"nothing would make me happier than . . . "
"nothing means more to me than . . . "

these are really all about the same things, or the loss of them. some friends say that i seem rather hardy and adaptable but i find that it's probably also rather noticeable in my past and ongoing works that i don't deal with changes and loss very well. that might be why i choose to face these struggles and understand them and myself better through photography instead. sometimes this shows up even in my design work too.

whenever i find a line stuck in my mind as i do this moment, it usually ends up becoming the title of my next series but i'm afraid this time i don't think i will do it. words will hold my fears for now.

my faith leads me to believe in eternity. yet this same faith also includes the inevitable realisation that not everyone will partake in the good part of this eternity.

i just hope you know that nothing matters more to me than seeing you all in eternity.

我只希望你知道， 对我而言，没有任何东西比能够在永生时看到你们更重要。

hopes are selfish in a way.

说走就走！

今天终于有机会继续读我在台湾的SEVEN买的书。 那是本关于一对父子用步行环绕台湾全岛的真实记绿。 看着书中的爸爸拍摄的照片， 我突然感觉到一个要翻翻我自己不久前在台湾所拍摄的画面的冲动。很奇秒， 原本累透的我竟然又充满了熬夜的力量。 我想这也算是种爱的动力吧！感谢主赐给我这种因爱创造而比较不会累的力量。可是我毕竟还是人， 明天必需上任另一种创造之类的工作， 今晚还是先休息明晚再继续比较对自己对工作负责任吧。

那台湾的照片就得拭目以待咯。。。

"I don't remember much about that holiday. Just you and me, and that beautiful dappled light."

(a preview of some ongoings)












(just had to let this out of my mind before going quite far and quite away and looking for other maybe better ways to translate this feeling photographically. see you all in 20 days!)