after watching Beginners // 20th august 2011

watching the character draw fireworks in the movie reminded me that i used to draw these fireworks a lot when i was younger too. we even drew them with crayons in art class and then painted black poster paint over them, creating the night. tonight's sparklers from our annual adhoc lantern adventure brought me back to this drawing again. :]

undue importance (work-in-progress//a series begins)

what happens when we accord something ordinary with undue importance?

light sparkling on the water surface,

a stray plastic bag aglow with the setting sun,

and perfectly embedded leds signalling the arrival of the train.

these are things we never quite pay attention to in our daily walks but yet are the very bits and pieces that form our everyday memories.

i begin to see in this series the unobvious things i am increasingly drawn to when i walk about with my camera.

i work seasonally

from Spring to Summer

i am a photographer

from Autumn to Winter

i am a designer

and whenever i have the chance,

i dance!


(lines in my mind from the same night of 突发新闻)

(hrmm and i guess it would be more accurate to add a 'mostly' after the photographer and designer lines)

(and perhaps a bit of 'at least for this year' at the end)

(or more accurate to refer to the previous post below)

回故

在去年的这个时候我好像用了我的好光相机捕捉了一个小男孩在人群中带着超大的观阳镜的画面。不知道为什么，这个画面常时不时的浮现在我的想像中。。。

i was thinking about this picture i took about a year ago. with a little spectator boy and his oversized disposable shades for looking at the sunrise we were all sharing. wondering if it was really exactly a year ago, i went to check out my notebook from that trip and wow true enough, i really did take this picture exactly a year ago! 2nd july 2008. zhun until cannot zhun siah. wah my sudden moments of clear memory amidst my general lack of day to day memory do scare me a fair bit sometimes too.



一年前在阿里山的友团。一年后在回故的我。

时间啊时间，你可以不要飞得那么快吗？

记得在前往苏澳火车上偶然遇到的年长夫妇和也在毕业旅行的年轻情侣都很友善的主动跟我们交谈。阿姨还说我们好像还挺开心的。

好想念跟一伙人去长途旅行的感觉咽！

我们今年是否能去文莱探望文莱公主呢？

希望。希望。我们去实现吧！

nothing would break my heart more than this.

lately for some reason i have been thinking a lot, too much about mortality with regard to the people around me. and the phrase "nothing would break my heart more than -" has been making its rounds in my mind. so if i look at you with a frown that is a mix of distraction with a dash of disturbance, yup i might just be mentally counting down. it's really morbid i know, but maybe it's a season i am meant to go through before i come to terms with some things.

"nothing would break my heart more than . . . "
"nothing would make me happier than . . . "
"nothing means more to me than . . . "

these are really all about the same things, or the loss of them. some friends say that i seem rather hardy and adaptable but i find that it's probably also rather noticeable in my past and ongoing works that i don't deal with changes and loss very well. that might be why i choose to face these struggles and understand them and myself better through photography instead. sometimes this shows up even in my design work too.

whenever i find a line stuck in my mind as i do this moment, it usually ends up becoming the title of my next series but i'm afraid this time i don't think i will do it. words will hold my fears for now.

my faith leads me to believe in eternity. yet this same faith also includes the inevitable realisation that not everyone will partake in the good part of this eternity.

i just hope you know that nothing matters more to me than seeing you all in eternity.

我只希望你知道， 对我而言，没有任何东西比能够在永生时看到你们更重要。

hopes are selfish in a way.

friendly neighbourhood photographer

realisations from a shooting break downstairs. do click on the picture to see it bigger and read it in flickr. hrmm if my handwriting is illegible tell me, then i'll transcript it into readable text here heh. :]