after watching Beginners // 20th august 2011

watching the character draw fireworks in the movie reminded me that i used to draw these fireworks a lot when i was younger too. we even drew them with crayons in art class and then painted black poster paint over them, creating the night. tonight's sparklers from our annual adhoc lantern adventure brought me back to this drawing again. :]

girl singing out loud on the train // 28th july 2011

i saw and heard a girl wearing earphones singing out loud on the train yesterday. there were some premature aunties about to tsk and tut at her but i thought it was a nice moment.

i didn't want her to stop so i didn't pull out my camera but took out my notebook and drew the scene instead.

scalloped sky en route to genting on your camera // 14th to 18th june 2010

thank you for being someone who would lend a photographer a camera! :]

colour pencils in a hotel room // 15th to 18th june 2009.

my eyes are melting and i have been thinking of malacca.

some drawings made with a big old box of colour pencils while staring at the sea//straits//蓝天白云微浪 earlier this year...











i'll be off travelling again very soon in december and then january for work and work, these two trips suddenly came in just as i was wondering not long ago if i'd ever get to travel for work.

"want come, don't come. one come, all come."

(some vague saying i remember from my childhood about waiting for buses. )

there's definitely someone listening in to all my thoughts.

i work seasonally

from Spring to Summer

i am a photographer

from Autumn to Winter

i am a designer

and whenever i have the chance,

i dance!


(lines in my mind from the same night of 突发新闻)

(hrmm and i guess it would be more accurate to add a 'mostly' after the photographer and designer lines)

(and perhaps a bit of 'at least for this year' at the end)

(or more accurate to refer to the previous post below)

回故

在去年的这个时候我好像用了我的好光相机捕捉了一个小男孩在人群中带着超大的观阳镜的画面。不知道为什么，这个画面常时不时的浮现在我的想像中。。。

i was thinking about this picture i took about a year ago. with a little spectator boy and his oversized disposable shades for looking at the sunrise we were all sharing. wondering if it was really exactly a year ago, i went to check out my notebook from that trip and wow true enough, i really did take this picture exactly a year ago! 2nd july 2008. zhun until cannot zhun siah. wah my sudden moments of clear memory amidst my general lack of day to day memory do scare me a fair bit sometimes too.



一年前在阿里山的友团。一年后在回故的我。

时间啊时间，你可以不要飞得那么快吗？

记得在前往苏澳火车上偶然遇到的年长夫妇和也在毕业旅行的年轻情侣都很友善的主动跟我们交谈。阿姨还说我们好像还挺开心的。

好想念跟一伙人去长途旅行的感觉咽！

我们今年是否能去文莱探望文莱公主呢？

希望。希望。我们去实现吧！

好久没有这样哗啦哗啦的掉泪了。（勿担心，我不难过， 只是被电影影响而已！）

今天看了一部电影，又勾起了我对于 回忆，时间 和 人生 的一些启发和感动。

回家的路上我突然间又想起了某个痛处， 一边开车一边哗啦哗啦地哭了。而今早我又感到了摸名的灵感，带了朋友送我的手帕插在裤子旁边的口带。

原来是种预言，手帕真的派上了用场耶。

when i am happy i take photos. when i am sad i take photos. oddly enough, the photos quite often turn out happy when i am sad and sad when i am happy. whichever happens, the process and the outcome usually work together as a healing experience, making me really feel better as a result. photography heals.

摄影能疗伤。

在哗啦哗啦的当而， 我想起了数年前我也在回家的路途上感伤的事件，又想起了当时拍下的感觉，一到家后屏了命去寻找那一套画面， 在差一点放弃的时候然我找到了。感谢主，若我找不到我一定睡不安。

几个小时前，为了记念再一度感受到回家时感处累累的经历，我再红灯前停车时用手机拍的：


零六年四月雨天。
在巴士公车即将到终站相机的单眼陪着我的双眼一起漠糊时拍的：





刚刚发现：原来我在那个时候就开时倾向我近日常用的漠糊式摄影了。真奇妙！

其实我看电影也蛮容易被感动到哭的。mamma-mia 也可以把我弄哭，我真的是赢了咯，哈。 （可是今天看的当然不是 mamma-mia 啦。。）

现在终于可以平安入睡了。


。 。 。 哦，现在真的跟零六年的那一天一样－－－突然下起倾盆大雨了！


我得去关窗了！晚安！

the tree that kenahded // while i was not far, but away.

this was one of the first things i noticed the morning after i got back from genting last friday. i took a photo then and some line from a jack johnson song floated to mind. i checked on it again this morning after talking about it last night or rather some time earlier this morning. the tree didn't resurrect. some construction work has been going on at the front of this secret fenced up field i spy on from my window. i just hope they don't kill the field into another mammoth condo....just like the one i live in.



at least the mysterious grass circles i quite often wonder about are still there... but i guess they might have once been great trees too...

the remains of the may

oke here's a quickpick of the events i have been caught up with.... i really need to stop filling up my weeks with nonstop days but then again i am glad that i.....


....shot portraits of my classmates for our gradshow and gradbook. i think these were the more tame shots, haha to see more power ones please go get a copy of our gradbook or well, ask me lah. heh. and i also put together this contact sheet as a farewell thingy for our power thesis tutor who went back home to finland a few weeks back.


.........caught a concert that i have been waiting for for the longest time haha. suffice to say, he is one of my favourites.




............performed with our friends in the lindy hop club in school at the university cultural centre. it was a blast! thanks to all who came down to support us in our little two minute debut haha. and yeah also realised i should probably start learning to differentiate eye shadow from wood dust after feeling totally lost backstage during make-up time...


.....................and survived our grad show at Central. yeah we sleepover in studio, we also sleepover at our own shows. must jagah our stuff overnight marh.. and sorry that i didn't do my invitations for this very thoroughly cos i was just stuck in nonstop days the past month....i promise that all of you will get proper invites in advance for the next show i am involved in, whatever wherever it'll be when it does happen!


and somewhere amidst all the madness above we also managed to run the sundown marathon...oke so we ran the team challenge which was just 10.5km each lah but still it was quite a feat considering we hadn't run such lengths for a long time. running at night was a lot easier as compared to the realrun we ran in the morning at sentosa two years back though so heh maybe we'll go for the marathon next year..but that'll definitely need a lot of real training....


so thank God for the past month, the past years, the many moments and the life ahead and beyond that wouldn't happen at all without Him!

i will be doing some goingaways in june/july. this time not far, but away. first to a church camp in awana genting from the 9th to the 13th and then to taiwan with the IDiots tentatively from the 23rd to the 11th. so catch me if/while you can!