drawings//colouring by 姑姐 and yw

fish and duck by 姑姐.


duck and fish by yw.


duck and chicken by 姑姐.


goose draft by 姑姐.


goose by 姑姐.


happy crab by yw.


tree when troubled. 5+ am 3rd june 2009.


virus friends when suspected to have been exposed to H1N1. 25th june 2009.




fishes for 姑姐 to colour. drawn in the dark while staying over in SGH. 16th oct 2010. colouring completed by 姑姐 at home on 6th nov 2010.



my auntie drew for me and taught me to draw when i was a kiddo. i remember it was mostly fishes in various forms and often in great detail, based on pictures she saw in magazines or the fish we happened to be eating for dinner that day. i can't find any of those earlier drawings but a few years back i thought to start my aunt drawing again and it became a bit of a back and forth dialogue between us.

she was hospitalised recently. i didn't really know how to make her feel better and was feeling quite down myself but just instinctively brought this sketchbook we've been using along to the hospital when i stayed over with her and drew in the dark when it was impossible to sleep.

colour pencils in a hotel room // 15th to 18th june 2009.

my eyes are melting and i have been thinking of malacca.

some drawings made with a big old box of colour pencils while staring at the sea//straits//蓝天白云微浪 earlier this year...











i'll be off travelling again very soon in december and then january for work and work, these two trips suddenly came in just as i was wondering not long ago if i'd ever get to travel for work.

"want come, don't come. one come, all come."

(some vague saying i remember from my childhood about waiting for buses. )

there's definitely someone listening in to all my thoughts.

风筝飞，日落下 ／／（ 天时、地利、人和 ）

a few weeks ago, it suddenly dawned upon me that... i am currently twenty something..when i am thirty something, my parents will be seventy something.... when i am forty something, God-willing, they will be eighty something!! and i thought that my dad is so blessed that at age sixty something, he still has his mother around.

and so the next day i decided to start making it a point to mai tu liao with regards to things that we say we want to do together. and so i took them to Henderson waves cos we've been talking about going there for yonks.

and it was a wonderful impromptu morning. : ]

haha and earlier this week was part two of the new mai tu liao mantra... after finishing up some work in the morning and spending the afternoon in my childhood neighbourhood with my lindy hop ensemble friends for an AEP assembly thingie, i found the afternoon super sunny, windy and absolutely favourable for kite-flying.

and so with the kites i've been buying with much secret hope in my heart from the toy shop at tan quee lan the past few times i've been running errands in the area, i carted my parents off to marina barrage to finally go fly kite (literally) together!

after a few days of "风筝已备，只欠东风" the wind finally came accompanied with glorious sunshine!

wah i think it was the first time in my life that i've flown a kite so high up that it took almost half an hour just winding it back down when we had to leave. it was a real struggle to get the kite really flying high cos as my father pointed out to me, i had bought a kite meant for 3 year olds haha. we even had to tumpang the kite string. i think that means join it up. anyway wah sunshine, wind, kite and laughing parents.















song boh!!

nothing would break my heart more than this.

lately for some reason i have been thinking a lot, too much about mortality with regard to the people around me. and the phrase "nothing would break my heart more than -" has been making its rounds in my mind. so if i look at you with a frown that is a mix of distraction with a dash of disturbance, yup i might just be mentally counting down. it's really morbid i know, but maybe it's a season i am meant to go through before i come to terms with some things.

"nothing would break my heart more than . . . "
"nothing would make me happier than . . . "
"nothing means more to me than . . . "

these are really all about the same things, or the loss of them. some friends say that i seem rather hardy and adaptable but i find that it's probably also rather noticeable in my past and ongoing works that i don't deal with changes and loss very well. that might be why i choose to face these struggles and understand them and myself better through photography instead. sometimes this shows up even in my design work too.

whenever i find a line stuck in my mind as i do this moment, it usually ends up becoming the title of my next series but i'm afraid this time i don't think i will do it. words will hold my fears for now.

my faith leads me to believe in eternity. yet this same faith also includes the inevitable realisation that not everyone will partake in the good part of this eternity.

i just hope you know that nothing matters more to me than seeing you all in eternity.

我只希望你知道， 对我而言，没有任何东西比能够在永生时看到你们更重要。

hopes are selfish in a way.

like they say, design is a family affair...

when channelling my seamstress roots failed, my mum who used to run a sewing school with her sisters stepped in. would not have survived without her.


not the most willing models, but ever caring. heh. my brother and my aunt in between moments of simulated interaction haha.


well i guess God is familyandmore too. this verse encouraged me through many a difficult night and has secretly become a part of my prototype heh.

and then there's family that you can choose - aka the good people you are blessed with as great friends. 远亲不如近邻。really true man. thank yous. the supernear, quitenear, notasnearbutgotcar and previouslyquitenear. :]

Jehovah-jireh. God has provided and thus i have survived. to God be the glory. thank You.




(and woohoo!!! can lindy anytime again now! haha priorities, priorities......oke and can taf club full-time again too. heh. joy!)

window to a storm // 12.05pm

aish, as jane would say. hais, as i would say. may, may, come today.